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Waiting for sleep
The only time of no feelings
Where sleep is my only peace
The only quiet from my thoughts
Wishing there was more
More than these thoughts and feelings
Of existing
It is ingrained in me
This suffering
Now to sleep
As there is no fixing this today
No fixing this at all
For I am not broken
Just feeling
Feeling and thinking
Thinking and feeling
Too much
That it takes me down
Down to where I struggle
To where I merely exist
I don’t want to exist
I want to live
So first I must live
With the feelings and the thoughts
Being with myself
So I can learn to live with myself
I hold the key
To my own existence
Am I brave enough
To unlock me?